GOD!!! I am in Love.

My heart has started giving signs of alarm. The pace have gone up, and the rythm resembles some kinda music, now.. That too, a melancholy one.
In all the books I have read, in all the historical documents I have gone through, something is given explicitely. Love is danger. Stay away.
I did so, till now.
Now, I feel the dread. My friend, Love is more frightening experience than a gun nudged on to your Point Blanck. If fired, I am dead, and the rest is upto God. But if Love strikes me, I am worse than dead. I alone will have to face all the consequences of my action.
Today, I am waging a war I can never win. Waging a combat in vain. I may hold the feelings at bay for the time being. But, for how long.. I donot know!! I do be no pessimist, but in this particular war of mine,I have no faith left for myself.

Yea, I am wondering about the inevitable doom.. Trust me, a part of my heart pulses to call it, "the sweet dream of mine". I'll love her all of my days. And it will be her and her only. When I see her pass, and didnot make an eye contact with mine, i'm thinking of an infinite number of possibilities, as what may have caused for her not to look at me.
Oh, if I were to describe an angel, it would be her name. If I were to describe a flower, it would be in her name. Every breeze is soo sweet, every sight is sooo beautiful.. Say, for example, the fan is rotating soo beautifully, so symmetrically..If I were to do anything at all, it will be for her sake. I, who have been an ardent warrior for customs, is now withering for her attention.
My defence, I was so proud of, is now nothing but sattered ruins.

My heart is trapped within her. But my body can still continue its journey.Lord, send me somewhere so far, so quick, so long, that I'll never have to tell her what i feel in the depths of my heart.
But I donot know, as wise men have said, "absence is like wind.. quenches the shallow and rekindles the deeper passions". Frankly, my friend.. I am in this stupid state of absolute confusion. Today, All I know is, I donot know what the outcme will be!

Psalms 23:The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures,he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake..........The Lord heareth the prayers of those who ask to put aside hatred. But He is deaf to those who would flee from love.....

I donot know. And worse, I still donot know where her heart lies.
Alas for the folly of this foolish lover.