I'M BAK!

Its after soo long, i'm back up in here, doing what????
Oh ya,, Giving a Spark to my thoughts...
This time, I'm taking a break.
Its not about books, Its not any stupid Adds. This time, Its about LIFE!!!
I know, U guys are pretty bored with these dump Philosophies..
But, I'm what I'm. And for knowing what I'm, you'll have to go through all these Craps..

This time, I'm talking about LOVE.
I'm a simple person. A man, who wishes not to take any chances. For, he have read and heard, "if burs on ur hand hurts, those on ur heart hurts much more." Oh! ya, it hurts like hell!!!

Love must surely reside in the gap between desire and fulfillment, in the lack. not in contentment.Love was the ache, the anticipation, the retreat, everything around it but the emotion itself
but, Love's CRAP. ya, Its full of Bullshit.

Its a river of ICE, soo turbulant.. something like an avalanche.. Furious enough to break the strongest of wills blocking the way. We hav to fight a flow, wrestled with impaccable tide that threaten to carry us along, all that is me, into the eternity.. for a heartbeat that took centuries, i hung, wavering, balenced on the brik of being scoured away like sand before a flashflood.when, with infinite slowness the balence firmed, it was still as though standing barefoot on a razors edge above a bottomless drop...
Hell, whatever it is, its CRAP.

I, not even in my wildest dreams, thought that i'll be proposed, much worse, loved!
I never saw her. like hell, i wanted to. But never had the chance. Looking back, I thank Lord tht I never had the chance.
or perhps, It was His Will!

I never thought of beauty. For even before thinking about all those stuffs, i was hit.By tht bloody cupid with his bloody shortbow bolt at point blank.
So Numb. Unable to think. to act. to do any stupid thing, to save my bloody soul.. All I could do was, submit myself.
perhaps, again to His Will!

oh! about her..
She was the kindest of all.. She could read my mood in my lines.. see the history of my whole day, without me telling her, in a conversation of few minutes.
she was great at understanding me. and a great prankster too.. hah!
Its saidd only opposite poles attract. She was nevr like me. Not even in a single way. I could almost say, She was the perfect anti-jeevan. Immatured. She nevr planned or even tought of future. nor about the past. All she did was to submit to me..For, she loved me. But then, she would complete me.
attain the tranquility.. ecstacy!

And she would walk to Shelob's Lair to get me.

Alas. HIS fucking WILL coming into bloody play again.
We proposed, He disposed.
HE BLOODY DISPOSED!!!

alas for us!